The day finally came, that we all have been praying for. The lord decided to make another angel on June 28th 2010. My great-grandmother has been longing for this day for many years. She never knew why, God was keeping her here. But she knew it was up to him. And he wanted her home with him now. The boys always refer to her as Cookie Maw-Maw. Everytime we went to visit her she always had a stash of cookies waiting for them. She use to keep her cookies or candy from her lunch tray at hospice, to give to the boys. Darrel and I had a hard decision to make; weather the boys should attend the funeral. We both had mixed emotions about it. It finally came down to asking the boys what they wanted to do. And it was a family agreement, they would attend their Cookie-Maw-Maw funeral. I didnt get to see her in her last couple months dying. I really didnt see her since she move so far away. I hated that she left her family, I would have love to visit her more. But it just wasnt feasible. I hate that I had so many picture of her with the boys up to almost two years ago. But I guess that is life. Even though we didnt get to see her as often as we use too, the boys always remember who Cookie Maw-Maw was. And I am thankful for that
We had alot of questions instore for us. More than we ever would have imagine. Some were cute and some were hard to explain to a 4 year old. I have to share them.
Me "Boys do you know what heaven is?"
Jackson "Yes, Heaven is where Jesus and God lives."
Me" Yes, that is good. Cookie Maw-Maw went to Heaven today."
Karson" No, mommy. Cookie Maw-Maw is at the hosptial(nursing home)"
Me: "No, honey. Cookie Maw-Maw is heaven with Jesus now. Jesus wanted her to live with him now"
Jackson now is getting pucker lips, and looks like he is about to cry. I am about to cry cause I hated having to break the news.
Jackson " Will Big Paw-Paw and big Maw-Maw still have cookies?"
Me : "Yes Honey, you will still have cookies"
Jackson" Okay good. But I am still going to miss cookie maw maw"
So on the day of the funeral, Karson was a very curious young boy looking at the casket. He kept saying "That is not Cookie Maw-Maw" "where is Cookie Maw Maw voice at" "I thought she was in heaven, but why is she here. " Why do we put her in the dirt"
We realize it is hard for them to understand that their souls go to heaven and their bodies are left here for us.
Jackson: "Mommy, to go to heaven we have cut our legs off before we can go"
Me: "No baby, we do not. Our bodies are still together"
Jackson: "well, cookie maw maw didnt have her legs"
That is when we all realize, that b/c grandma was in the casket, they only lift the top part. So Jackson never saw her legs. We thougth that was a cute moment
Me: "Okay boys, just want to make sure, you understand. We will never see cookie maw maw again."
Jackson "Oh, yes we will.
Me: " No honey, we will not.
Jackson: "when we go to Heaven we will see her"
I am glad I have all my memories I can share with the boys. I have video tapes of her singing to them, when they were first born. And I plenty of pictures to remember her by. But I know she is super excited right now. And we will never forget her!!
Also went to CVS and only spent $8.00. We got these items
